Oceans will part
Nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise
Glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

-Hillsongs United-

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Never knew the heart could be so burdened for others. Never fully understood what it is to pray for others. Never knew that truly, anything can happen. Never fully understood how it is to depend completely on prayer.

Now I do. It is AMAZING when at the end of it, you see God glorified- but oh! How nail-biting it was when you were in the middle of it, waiting for an outcome.

Thank You.

Blessed Easter everyone.

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The only day of the year I’d be up earlier than planned is when daylight saving ends. Woke up at 730am without the aid of the alarm, just by the bright light shining through the gap between my heavy curtains. The alarm was set at 8am but if you think about it, hey! I woke up at 630am!

It’s nice to see the sun again instead of the dark gloom sky when you get out of bed. Makes getting out of bed so slightly more bearable.

This is the day that the greatest Gift was gifted to us!

Why? Why would one want to spend Christmas alone (apart from it being a lack of choice)?

I want to spend this time to refocus on THE true reason for Christmas.
Ask me now and I can rattle the reason to you but I have to honestly say, it will lack some enthusiasm. I feel so far away and it’s not something I’m proud of admitting. I try, then I stumble. I stay where I am for a while, then I try again.
I can only say that I am VERY glad that God is always faithful!

The term “Scrooge” or “grinch” is used when one does not display a “Christmas spirit” at the end of the year – but really…what is the “Christmas spirit”? Or rather, what is the world’s definition of “Christmas spirit”?

I have no planned script for this post – it’s all over the place!

I look forward to time alone.

Just to be loved by You, I’m in heaven…heaven on earth.

- Darlene Zschech -

Almost 3 years have passed.
Same song, different message.

Have been thinking about relationships, contentment and joy.

It is very true that one has to be completely happy being single (and I don’t mean I-am-an-island-I-don’t-need-anyone-I’m-totally-void-of-feelings kind of “happy being single” here) before even thinking of anything else. If you can’t find joy when you’re supposedly “alone” – you won’t find it anywhere else.

God didn’t make me “half” an individual that I need another to complete me.
HE completes me.

Now, to find/have someone who can share my life with me, that would be an added bonus.

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can’t steal it
No they can’t even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

You’re packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly for freedom

Hallelujah
Hallelujah

-Performed by Darlene Zschech from Kiss of Heaven-

I shared with a few people how I felt out of place, never knowing when I will have my own place (on earth) to make it home. Maybe I’m worrying about the wrong home – I’m happy enough to be reminded again I DO have a home to go back to, it’s just a matter of time.

But most Christians vaguely sense that they long for so much more than what they experience on a daily basis, and they suppress a terror that no one could know them fully and still want to be their friend.

I know exactly what he meant.

Now our concern is more about how are we going to help lighten the financial burden. The rest is entirely up to him – to take this seriously and to WANT to be better. We can’t do anything if he’s going to be negative about this matter – it will only make things hard for all of us.

Lord, I feel guilty for not having any deep felt concern. Maybe it’s still sinking in.

Help us, help him.
Help him see this time as a time to make a change, to take responsibility, to make things right – not for others, but for himself.

Hear our late night whispers, hear the secrets in our hearts, hear our hopes and fears…and if You hear even the faintest cry from him, I hope You will pour Your spirit unto him.
I commit him into Your hands and I know with that, whatever happens would be the best.

I asked, “Tell me how, show me how. It’s so difficult! It’s so hard to do…”

The very word that spoke to me was “undeserved”.

God’s love for us is undeserved. We did nothing to earn it; no good in us merited it. “God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us” (Rom. 5:8). In all our relationships, especially with our children, we must genuinely show that same kind of love.

Who am I to say or pick on whom I choose to love?
I didn’t deserve it, so who am I to judge and say he doesn’t deserve my love and respect?

But it’s so hard, God…show me how, tell me how.
How am I to look past the hurt that he has inflicted on loved ones?