T is liftoff time.
H is for hours.
M is for minutes.
S is for seconds.
Naturally, D is for days (my own deduction).
I’m excited to go to HongKong! I’m also excited to go home, of course – can’t wait to see everyone, especially mom. Yet, this is a bittersweet trip home for me. What makes it so – I am unable to divulge the information here but it’s definitely something close to heart.
Bittersweet may also be caused by the one-way ticket I’ve purchased this time. It’s a freedom to choose when I want to fly back to Malaysia, but at the same time, there is no urgency when I have no ticket’s expiry to worry about. I am still in the midst of deciding where I want to be semi-permanently and with this one-way ticket decision, at least I’ve got the country sorted (sort of)?
*shrugs*
Only God knows how sentimental I can be and how I can be so attached to things/places; that I do myself harm when I try so hard to hold on to the memories that live within them. Don’t get me wrong – I don’t look back and think of the bad that makes me sad. The irony is that when I think of the GOOD memories, I feel sad – because I know I can’t turn back time and lock them down in an indefinite loop, that I may never cease to bask in its happiness.
Perhaps it is (indeed) time to move on. Make new memories. Learn to let go. Mend broken heart strings and look forward to playing new tunes. Only reminisce about the good old times when in the presence of family/friends from those times because when all is done, we are comforted by the fact that those family/friends are still around us (thinking about the past alone is detrimental but when with company, it becomes the highlight).
I can’t wait to go back and catch up with family/friends. Are you excited about me coming back?
by FeR on January 10, 2010 in female
Ah! It’s been 6 months since I went to get help for my skin. It means I have to let go of the azelaic acid cream and probably switch to benzoyl peroxide for now. When I last saw Marcia on the 11th of December, she told me to gradually reduce my Doxy as well – 100mg on alternate days (because the 50mg tablets are not subsidised and I still have leftover of the 100mg tablets). She also told me that there is about 30% chance that the acne may recur when I stop the antibiotics. It’s not TOO bad a number, right?
Still curious about the late acne onset, I asked Marcia if I should get tested for PCOS – she took the question as me wanting to get it done and handed over the blood test request form to me.
I was prepared to pay for the lab fee since I am not a resident (although I know with my work visa, I am entitled to healthcare here – I wasn’t too sure about lab tests) – but whee! Got my passport, got my work visa slapped on it – got my blood test done for free. I expected to wait for a bit because there were about 3 people in the waiting area but the next thing I know, my name was called! I was slightly nervous (if you know me, you know I don’t do needles+blood well), thinking to myself, “What have I done? Why did I decide this so suddenly? Why did I drive to the lab directly from the surgery??? Why didn’t I think it over before coming here?”
It was all good, albeit I was a bit giggly to hide my nervousness about the needles.
(Side note: Had my first McD’s breakfast that day to replenish my loss )
Skin comparison after the cut – I’ve included older photos from the first skin update. I didn’t imagine it to be that different but looking back, I thought to myself, “WHYYYY did I let myself go out of the house looking like THAT without covering it up?????”
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by FeR on January 9, 2010 in crafts
I want to get a sewing machine!
No, I don’t know how to use one.
No, I don’t have a pattern for a project.
No, I don’t know how to make a quilt.
I want to try! I want to be more productive, I want to spend more time doing stuff instead of sleeping in or sitting around doing nothing. Maybe I should go to Knitworld and ask if they have sewing classes/workshops.
Got inspired by Auntie Fafa’s Small Potatoes and other blogs that I was browsing through yesterday.
by FeR on January 6, 2010 in likes
On New Year’s eve, my “plan” was just to finish work, go home and be a couch potato (there were a few movies on and I wanted to watch them – in bed!) I didn’t mind it at all because I’ve been working for a long stretch and I’d love some time to wind down.
Our only “group picture” – using Sam’s legs as pillows, one for each side.
Well, I ended up at Alex+Samantha’s place for dinner (chi chan! ) and watching those movies on their big TV! Even when it was time for fireworks, I stayed in their place while they went to town (with my camera *hehe*).
Taken by Alex – flighty people.
Some photos of the fireworks (I think it lasted about 10 minutes?) after the cut.
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Carmen rang me at work to tell me I’ve got a courier pack to be picked up from the Hastings post shop – I had a feeling it would from Sze-Mien because she told me that one was coming (well, she told me it would be there before LiMay arrives ) – great timing. A day AFTER LiMay left HawkesBay.
Yay!!! So cantik.
I knew I was getting a tumbler as a gift, I didn’t know it was only my birthday gift.
(Side note: I texted Sze-Mien, “going to be ungrateful but I was expecting fancier mug design coming fr u. “)
I have a Christmas gift, too! It was gorgeously wrapped.
I have this on my phone now – will bring it ALL around, especially for my mahjong games!
Thanks Sze-Mien!!
