FeR

T is liftoff time.
H is for hours.
M is for minutes.
S is for seconds.

Naturally, D is for days (my own deduction).

I’m excited to go to HongKong! I’m also excited to go home, of course – can’t wait to see everyone, especially mom. Yet, this is a bittersweet trip home for me. What makes it so – I am unable to divulge the information here but it’s definitely something close to heart.

Bittersweet may also be caused by the one-way ticket I’ve purchased this time. It’s a freedom to choose when I want to fly back to Malaysia, but at the same time, there is no urgency when I have no ticket’s expiry to worry about. I am still in the midst of deciding where I want to be semi-permanently and with this one-way ticket decision, at least I’ve got the country sorted (sort of)?
*shrugs*

Only God knows how sentimental I can be and how I can be so attached to things/places; that I do myself harm when I try so hard to hold on to the memories that live within them. Don’t get me wrong – I don’t look back and think of the bad that makes me sad. The irony is that when I think of the GOOD memories, I feel sad – because I know I can’t turn back time and lock them down in an indefinite loop, that I may never cease to bask in its happiness.

Perhaps it is (indeed) time to move on. Make new memories. Learn to let go. Mend broken heart strings and look forward to playing new tunes. Only reminisce about the good old times when in the presence of family/friends from those times because when all is done, we are comforted by the fact that those family/friends are still around us (thinking about the past alone is detrimental but when with company, it becomes the highlight).

I can’t wait to go back and catch up with family/friends. Are you excited about me coming back?