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But it happened 7 years ago.

I have been feeling nostalgic, so I dug up my old entries (ones that I’ve deleted but kept a copy on disk) and to make it all the more “sentimental”, I chose the one dated 21st August 2002 (I think it’s 21st in Malaysian time because in the entry, I said it was 20th, although the entry’s date was 21st.)

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Love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can’t leave behind
Love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can’t leave behind

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can’t steal it
No they can’t even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

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From “Inside Out” by Dr. Larry Crabb

But most Christians vaguely sense that they long for so much more than what they experience on a daily basis, and they suppress a terror that no one could know them fully and still want to be their friend.

I know exactly what he meant.

Back when I first started my blog, I wrote about everything and anything. I would update several times a day(!) because I was afraid if I didn’t write it down, I’d forget it.

The memory issue is pretty much the same now but somehow I find it…tiring. The writing and publishing, I mean (the irony! I remember writing about how I loved blogging because I could type faster than I could write and that I was always on the computer – it made sense to have a blog)

So I delay writing it down (yes, despite having a notebook in my bag at all times) and I forget. When I sit down at the end of the day, I just think of how my feet ache and how I wish I needn’t work.

Stop.
Rewind.
Repeat.

I want to purge my site and have a start-over (I go thru this particular purge-clean-startover phase for everything in my life – when will this madness end?), so I use that as an excuse, “Aiyah, I won’t update now because I’m going to change it later on…waste time. I will do it when I’ve got my site cleared up.”

Of course, it never happened (well, I hope it’s happening in September when I renew my domain and hosting) and we ended up with an accidental hiatus.
By “we”, I mean my blog and I.

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Now the craving is another thing that’s bugging me.
After spending $20 at the same place for two consecutive days to satiate my craving for laksa, you would think I’d be moving on to the next thing (yes, you know how I get cravings for certain things and then after that, I’d crave for something else)!

Nope!
Not happening.

It’s the middle of the night and I’m STILL wanting to eat laksa. Should I go again after work tomorrow and spend another $10?
Mind you, this is not even Malaysian laksa…it’s more of a sweet spicy soup with a hint of coconut milk/cream. Curiously, I enjoy it and somehow my brain tells me, “Ah! Laksa!”

I do have the ingredients to whip some up (cheat’s way, of course!) – laksa paste, fish cakes, puffed tofu, rice noodles…but tak semangat to cook lah! I just want to eat it.

I should go to bed. It’s going to be a looooong weekend for me. I will regret going to bed this late when the alarm goes off at 6am.