Detox Day 3

Yes, I finally got to start the 10 days’ detox pack that I bought – way back in December.

I had good excuses, okay!
There was the work do, Christmas, New Year, Chinese New Year…so I start now.

I’ve already weaned myself off coffee for the past month and I’ve not touched bread since…I don’t remember.

AGHH!!!

Day 3 and I’m already hoping it will come to an end RIGHT NOW.
I am craving (since yesterday night, so I guess from Day 2 I already beh tahan) for fast food, chips, sweets…basically all the unhealthy stuff.

I.Must.Persevere!

I nearly gave in this afternoon telling myself it’s probably okay to have ONE meal off tangent during this detox period – and I nearly had to slap myself as well.

I guess the hardest part is the restrictions with meals as well. I mean, cooking “from scratch” is fine for me but with the “no things from can”/”everything as fresh as possible” rule, it can be difficult to plan my meals – especially when I’m working.

My “saddest” lunch so far was yesterday – two boiled eggs, an apple and half a cucumber – because I finished late on Thursday and didn’t have time (or energy) to cook as I had to be work early the next day.

I went shopping and got things like gluten free pasta, brown rice, fruits and fresh vegetables…and I understand why it is not possible for everyone to go organic or gluten free – too expensive for everyday! Even now when I’m only feeding myself, I am always steering towards the more economical options (yes, it’s the kiam siap-ness)!

Then why go do it?

I don’t know.
I guess this is one of my last resorts of trying to figure out what’s causing my skin problem. I just cannot understand or accept that I had a worry free puberty and if I’m “paying back” for it now.
There is always a logical explanation!

I noticed that my skin got worse when we went over to Glasgow – maybe it’s the weather…but weather doesn’t explain why my skin did not go back to how it used to be pre-Glasgow time!

Then I thought, “Hmmm…going to Glasgow coincided with my alcohol binging!”

[Before I go on, no, I'm not an alcoholic. It was around that time a few of us accompanied Connie to clubs - frequently - because she was often "bored".]

I only thought of that now because I’ve seen a specialist to tell me that I’ve got Gilbert’s Syndrome.

So during my secondary school years, there is no such thing as alcohol binging. Why would my liver suddenly act up if I’ve always had Gilbert’s Syndrome and it never bothered me even if I stayed up late or skipped meals?
[Okay, another answer would be I lao liao ]

I have a hunch (thus the detox and I really hope it makes a difference – ohhowIsuffer!) this breakout problem may be related to my liver.

Off to Glasgow – what do I drink?
FULL CREAM MILK!
Full of hormones as well!
Liver screams for help – “First alcohol, now all these hormones?!!!”
[Back home in Malaysia, hardly took milk because of the cost.]

MissLiver has a backlog of work (she was coping with deadlines but what do you expect from only one worker?) from the day I was born but when I had the alcohol binge, that was when she gave up trying to catch up, I think.
Thus the breakouts – coinciding with leaving to Glasgow.

Every toxin…I mean, MissLiver’s work files, that has been accumulated from yesteryears broke loose.

Everything’s a mess!

That’s my theory.
Yup.
All this “pain” leads you to me being vain.

I want problem-free skin!
[Face, to be specific...and it's "again"!]