While everyone around me seem happy, contented, settled, focused, accomplished…I wonder what do I have or look forward to that would propel me in that direction.

Though in my conscious mind I know I want to pass my internship, I don’t feel motivated by the prospect of getting there.

I mean, who would want to fail, right?
Yet, I don’t feel excited or happy or anything at all!

Nothing.
Just numbness speckled with the occasional tension/strain ache on my right shoulder, which reminds me I’m not dreaming and that I’m alive.

I don’t know what I want, thus I don’t know what would make me happy at this point.