While everyone around me seem happy, contented, settled, focused, accomplished…I wonder what do I have or look forward to that would propel me in that direction.
Though in my conscious mind I know I want to pass my internship, I don’t feel motivated by the prospect of getting there.
I mean, who would want to fail, right?
Yet, I don’t feel excited or happy or anything at all!
Nothing.
Just numbness speckled with the occasional tension/strain ache on my right shoulder, which reminds me I’m not dreaming and that I’m alive.
I don’t know what I want, thus I don’t know what would make me happy at this point.
Only after this incident (and after Jocelyn asking me if it often happens)…I found out it is quite common. What more, tremors are more often experienced in Hawke’s Bay because of the tectonic plates.
Hawke’92s Bay is located on the Australian Plate, about 150 km west of the Hikurangi Trough, which marks the subduction boundary between the Pacific and Australian Plates. At this latitude, the two plates are converging obliquely at about 42 mm/yr. The interface between the two plates is a large fault that dips about 6′b0 to the west near the Hikurangi Trough and steepens to about 25′b0 below Hawke’92s Bay.
Hawke’92s Bay’92s location above the subduction interface means that it is within a zone of high deformation, and as a consequence has many earthquakes.
The duty seismologist at GNS Earth Science says that people in the Hawke’s Bay are familiar with earthquakes.
(From OneNews)
I only read the part about sunny Hawke’s Bay before coming here, nothing about the quakes – despite reading about the 1931 disaster.
Warwick Smith says that the moderately sized quake would have shaken people a bit, but it would not have caused too much alarm.
However, he said New Zealand generally got a quake measuring about 6.0 once a year and Hawke’s Bay residents would be as hardened as anyone to quakes, being on the country’s main earthquake belt.
“Hawke’s Bay people know a lot about earthquakes and feel them all the time,” Smith said.
It’s scary.
About 1125pm?
(There is an update on “latest quake” from GeoNet confirming the quake and had a Richter magnitude of 5.9)
It felt like someone was trying hard to bulldoze the house down.
I could see my ceiling light swaying around.
I could feel the whole floor shake, from side to side.
My legs are still shaky and I can’t stand up properly.
There wasn’t any warning.
To think I thought someone was knocking on the door and wall, REAL hard.
It felt like that initially, someone banging on the walls.
Then the floor shook…I thought it’d never end.
It probably lasted a few seconds but it felt longer than that.
I’m spooked – I feel like crying.
I feel especially vulnerable when I haven’t got anyone here.
I thank God I’ve got a housemate who is local, who knows what to do.
She called out to me but I didn’t hear. Not until it was over and I got out of my room.
“You know what to do when it happens, right?”
“No. This is the very first earthquake I’ve ever experienced. My legs are shaky.”
“You get under a doorway, or under the table.”
*nod*
In my state of fear, when the whole house was shaking, I cried, “God, help!”
It’s scary. Very scary.
I’m afraid it’ll happen again but Carmen said if there is more, it should’ve been here already as the tremors/quake would be one after another(!!!)
