While I sat and waited for my mee goreng, I observed this guy sitting beside me (or rather, me sitting beside him since he was there first) eating.
Could anyone please tell me why I feel sad when I see him eating?!
For all you know, he’s quite happy eating alone but for me, I see it as isolation from everyone else. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s a personal fear?
I see him eating (he’s horizontally challenged) and I felt sad. Why?
I transferred myself into his shoes. Eating alone, the chair not comfortable enough for my butt…just stuffing my face.
Is it my hormones? I can’t really explain how I feel or why I feel like that. It’s a mixture of sadness with pity? I feel like slapping myself because it shows that I’m shallow, no? I think that he’s isolated because of his physique.
I would feel afraid for him, too…with the “packaged” problems for someone who’s overweight/obese. Heart attack, diabetes, high cholesterol, etc.
Maybe it’s the hormones sometimes. During my pre-menstrual days, I would feel all bloated. I would feel so disgusted at myself for the flab that overlaps out from my jeans/skirt…I get quite angry at it and at times would start punching it in vain hope that it’ll get smaller. I feel so ugly, out of place. It’s the worst time to buy clothes, ever! I would look to food for comfort during that time but thereafter I would feel like puking because I feel guilty for stuffing my face with rubbish/junk food.
Coming back to my initial query. Why do I feel pity/sadness when I see overweight people eating by themselves? Feels so sad to be all alone.
Then again, sometimes I remind myself that I like to be alone, go out alone and eating alone, too! Maybe people would feel the same for me? Maybe it’s the state of being alone for too long.
Can anyone explain to me why am I feeling like this?
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